Dilemma

Haihz.............*whinning*
After another few more weeks of trial.
I realize i am not strongly motivated.The mind set and action is totally vice versa.
I realize on field i am just a lazy bump and easily get de-motivated.
Now i feel like quitting.Verbally,i make my decision.
But whenever Jack or Rico called me,i feel in dilemma.
Since they all give me so much care,shall i give up?
Like what Yoko told me,"the leader haven't give up on you,why shall you give up on yourself?"

Haihz............really don't know how.
"To climb to the top of the mountain is easy,but to stay at the top is hard."
The word "CONSISTENCY" is definitely easy to be said but hardly can be done to me.
I've calculated,if cannot hit 8 pieces our weekly wages is only RM420.
Which means RM1.6k per month.
With the long working duration and hard works,don't you feel that working at office is better?

Thus to be fair to myself and my boss,i think this week i will give it my very last try.
I won't nagged out and lazy for this whole week.
If my sales blossom then i can consider.
If not,then i think i should say farewell.
8 pieces is my target.Is a "Do or Die" mentality.

If success then i can consider to try to be consistent.
If fail,i shall give up and look for something more comfort and suitable for me.

Good side of this job:

• Career opportunities
• Relax and fun environment
• High income if able to hit 8-10 pieces
• Peoples in here
  

Bad side of this job:

• Long working duration
• Dead meat when 0 sales
• Pressure by sales

Give it 1 more try.1 and the last 1.

Update [7.6,2008] [ On Work]

Without notice,my last post is dated on March.
Time past so fast.I can't even grab it,all i can do is just see it running through.
I work as insurance agent and change my job.

Now i am a management trainee and working for APPCO. (Known as COBRA in UK.)
My company name is Jack Tan Marketing.It's been a month i have been working for them.
Numerous complaint, numerous thought of giving up, numerous time of exhaustion and numerous time of negative thoughts. Argh.............why so many numerous?

Working this job is complete different from my experience and expectation.
It's never going to be an easy journey.
The 1st 2 weeks was complete disaster. Going under the hot sun, chasing peoples to approach, and etc.
OMG~why am i doing this?I am at least a dip. holder.

Though this job do have a future of ownership,but can i with stand all the challenge and obstacle?

"Winner never quit, quitter never win". Am i going to be a winner?or a quitter?

Seriously,without strong support and advise from Rico, i believe i already collapse.
Currently i stay is because of him. He teach me a lot in mental building, personality building and working skills. Really wanna thanks him. He is the man,he is my bro.I feel so touch sometimes.

Though i don't know how long can i stand all these, but i will try my best to maintain a good working ethic in this job. I shall start prepare myself for more and more goal to achieve.Continue to blast and work hard,hard and harder.

See-ing so many new people coming in and old people leaving, i realise this is a job where the final people who stay is a winner. ^^

Btw, i am proud of this job. When there is people tell me "I really respect and admire you all.For the courage that you all have and the boldness to approach peoples just like that.This is something i can't do." This is what many people tell me. ^^

Last thing:
"Always Feel Proud With What You Are Doing.No One Shall Decide What We Want And What We Should Do."

Be Strong and Stay Strong.