De-Motivation

Yesterday i face a very tough noon and evening.
Tough not because of the walk in customer giving me some hard time.
But tough in terms of mentality of this job pressure.
Before join in here, i already expect WORST ever things that could happen in here.
Expectation is always expectations. Things always go beyond our expectations.
Looking at the ESAU template (our scorecard for our sales target), totally break my mentality to parts.
We are like performing Mission Impossible of the Impossible.
At evening, our boss called us in for a sales meeting regrding the ESAU.
Her words is totally another crashing mentality elements.
"UNACCEPTABLE" , "THAT IS PATHETIC", "SUCKS" and etc all thrown out from her mouth.

Being a leader might not be easy, as they need to face pressure and stress from everyone.
But a good and true leader, suppose to know how to balance up everything as they are the captain of the ship.
They should be calm at anytime and lead us to victorious road.
But all these are not seen from her.
She is just de-motivating us.

I wondering is this really 1 of the way the bank trying to sack off the sales staff?
By setting the high target, those under probation shall be ask to leave politely?
All this is still a mystery for us to find out.

The target i can say somewhere around 4x harder than this year.
My boss just simply making the situation worst.
She ask to plan our leave, and now she say she wanna cancel off our leave because we cannot submit 100% to her.
WTF? like that better don't ask us to plan since we know e can't predict the future!
NOT EVEN TOMORROW!
Boss said the main focus for next year is mortgage and CASA.
But the weightage, is something near impossible to hit weekly.
Haihz......econ crisis hit and they still expecting something GREAT.

Buck up or buck out?
Choose yourself and think yourself.

Needs VS Demands

Theory of economic classes "Needs VS Demands".
When income increase, demands increases as well.
And it is said that demands is always not enough.
We will demand more and more as to compare with needs.
Needs is something that a human must have in order to survive.
I realise this is quite and very true.
I realise that demands is something that will never end.
As i thought i have finished shop for all the things i need, is actually not a full stop yet.
Yesterday when i have a short conversation with Aiyak, i realise that i missed 1 good opportunity to purchase a LCD monitor.
During the PC fair, i went to low yat and accidently i bump into this Samsung 22" LCD priced at RM550+.
I am not certain bout the market price and i just shopped for a new hand phone.
Thus, i just let it go.
Then around Friday i went to mines for a walk with my GF.
And i found out that Samsung 22" priced at RM929.
I feel a bit curious and i brought up this topic with Aiyak (My IT advisor).
And he said "YA!now the LCD quite cheap lor. What you saw that day is possible."
I straight stunned a while and slightly regret i didn't purchase during that time.
RM930-RM550 = RM390 difference leh.
Plus Aiyak said the CRT monitor (the old one we are using) is not so good for our eyes.
Because of the reflection.
In the other hand LCD is better for our pair of eyes.
Thus it makes me feel that i need to buy a LCD monitor for my own health.
If i buy a LCD monitor, i need to buy a new PC table as well to fit in the LCD monitor.
Thus i will need to spend more on all this "demand" things.
Just realize that the demands here really never end.
We will keep on ask for more and more things will appear in our wishlist both directly and indirectly.
Expenditure definately will go up despite of econ crisis or econ stable.
*Crying in tears for wallet pain*

27th Dec 2008

Yesterday slept around 2am.
Actually i am just crawling on the bed till 3am only i am able to fall asleep.
I am forced to wake up at 7am as i need to go to work.
But fortunately the traffic is very smooth though i left my house at 7:30am.
Anyway, i wonder is it my sleeping position not proper causing me shoulder ache.
So nice if my GF is beside me can give me a body massage.
Guess i shall include in my wishlist for a massage machine from OGAWA?

X'mas eve

After reading my GF's blog, i realize i were to post something like her's.
So
Well, we have quite a peaceful dinner at Hulu Langat.
I stayed around this area, and i never get to know that there is this restaurant.
Until i found it from this website : http://www.rasarasa.net/article.cfm?id=6847
The place is quite easy to be found and it is quite secluded.
We do not know what is great at there.
And we just ask the boss there to give us some recommendation and we just order it.
Just like that......we never think and consider about the price and straight order.
As if we are orang kaya like that.Haha~
The food there taste good....and then "Ba So Gong" also taste very fresh.
Here is some of the pictures of the food we order.
Sorry for the poor quality ya.

2 Persons EAT THIS MUCH!!!

Crab Crab~

Once finish eat, we call for the bill and it cost me RM129.
Cheap or expensive?
You guys think and consider yourself.
For me, i really not sure.
But i know seafood is realyl expensive.

We came here because we do not want to caught in the bad traffic in KL and PJ area.
Beside, we just wanna have a simple celebration and enjoy our precious moment.
After our dinner, we just drive around and relax ourselves from the busy city life.
Haha....sounds like we both are soooooooo old and wanna have a good retirement life.
Basically that's all about my christmas eve and christmas celebration.

Wishing you all MERRY CHRISTMAS and enjoy with your loved one.

Farewell 2008?

Year 2008 is coming to an end.
As we are all busy preparing for next year, I guess is time to plan for future.
That’s why New Year resolution has come to the play.
But 1st and for most, I would like to take this chance to say apologies.
To those which I have hurt, created troubles and etc.

Nevertheless, my mum.
Thought I make a lot of mistake, but you are always there for me.
Giving me all the morale support and precious advice that I need.
Every single advice gives me a deep impression and will always be in my heart.
Mum, you are the greatest love of all on earth.
Thanks.

Dad, you are so understanding and patient with me.
You are always my great GPS navigator and your helping hands are always there for me.
In the future I will repay you for all your great efforts.

I feel very grateful and thanks that my GF came back to me and be part of my life.
She has been very supportive and understanding.
Without her, I wouldn’t have gone through this year easily.
Though we go through a lot of hard times, quarrel a lot and tear a lot.
But I believe we are getting better and better.

Jenice, lots of hugs and kisses to you.
You have been helping me so much since the day 1 I joined SCB.
You teach me a lot and guide me a lot.
I am sorry for all the mistakes and troubles that I have created for you.
But you are able to solve it, you are my IDOL!
I will take your advice and try to work as long as I can in SCB.
I will not give up easily.

Last but not least, to my bestie Skinny King and friends.
I am sorry if I make you guys pissed off.
But I don’t mean it. You guys spice up my life.
Thanks a lot!!!!!!!
Never regret playing badminton every Sunday with you guys.LOLX!

OK…..that’s all bout my apologies.
-Now is all about my New Year resolution.
-I wanna have my savings up to RM10k (Minimum RM6k)
-Quarrel less with my darling.
-Bring my family for a grand dinner.
-Buy nice present for my mum and dad on their birthday.
-Spend less on unnecessary things.
-Do more sales and get more incentives.

Temporary that is what in my mind that I could have thinks of.
If I got extra, I will include in blog to keep myself updated and remember on my GOALS and DREAMS.
Without GOALS and DREAMS, we lost our direction.
Stay put and believes in ourselves.

Merry Christmas to all my loved one and Happy New Year!
9 days and counting to 2009!

Shopping and Leisure

I finally understand why when a person not happy they spend money.
Though is not a good practise and good way, but i guess is useful.
I spent around RM200 yesterday.
And i spent RM1300 for phone and RM150 for shirts.
In within 2 weeks i spent around RM1.7k.
Part of this spending is a reward to myself and also CNY shopping spree.
Yesterday i wasn't really that happy.
But after i purchase things, i feel satisfy.
Maybe is the satisfaction of getting something i like cheer me up back.
And before that i catch up a movie with my gf.
"BEVERLY HILLS CHI HUA HUA".
Oh my, those doggie are soooooooo adorable.
There is one even know how to say prayer.
Really adorable......
Maybe i am a pet lover thus when i come across all these lovely doggie, i feel extra happy.
Wish the other movie "Dogs' hotel" (something like that) faster go on screen in cinema.
I bet that will be another great movie for me!

18th December 2008

Recently i have been feeling very stress and tired of my job.
Though i know my job is all about sales.
But sometimes the target is ridiculous.
RM1.5m CASA (Current and Savings Account) and RM1m mortgage.
Monthly target.......If this target is for a month or 2 month i might be able to accept it.
But monthly?NO WAY!
Secondly, our target is reported daily.
Is like making me no space to breath and rest.
Though this week i hit 500%. But next week, die die also i must submit at least 80%.
Upper management never consider the current market and economic crisis issue.
All they care is sales. But i guess i won't take it too seriously to reduce my stress.
If i carry this on my shoulder, i will feel totally exhausted and tired.
But obviously, work have sucked up all my energy.

My boss, she is another shit problem.
Her dignity is so expensive till she can't afford to lose.
Not even once. 1 day she didn't scold people, she won't feel happy.
I believe that is one of the way she release her stress i guess.
1 day she caught me and Kelly eating inside Sally's room.
Actually is because we talked a bit too loud.
Eventually, boss came in and give us a short nag.
Unexpectedly, she send an email to sally on that evening.
I just didn't understand why she want to react this way?
She said if there is any problem, just speak it out.
But did she do it?
She scolded Sally and ask Sally to questions us.

1st) Why can't she scold us directly since it was our fault?
2nd) Why must she send an email to Sally?
3rd) Why she want Sally to ask us instead of her coming directly to us?

To make the situation worst, they wanna do some announcement on next Wednesday branch briefing.
She wanna mentioned this case in front of others.
WTF!Just a small problems and she is making a big fuss out of it.
Why can't she just explained or warn us then close the case?
Why is she making so many shits just for this small problem?

I can't see she is acting in a proper way of a branch manager suppose to be.
All she know is pressure people bout sales sales and sales.
She even guide people in a wrong way. She didn't even set a good example in my thoughts.
She can even go to an extend to ask people apply loans just for the sake of "APPROVE" and we can reports it as our figure.
Thereafter, the customer can go and cancel it.
She even ask us to find our own parents deposit money and withdraw it after 15 days.
OMG!WTF?Branch Manager?
Is this the correct way to guide people?
She is not putting herself in other people's shoe.
She mentioned that to get the "tails" right, the "head" must be right.
I guess the head is not right also.
I don't think i will obey her that much.

Plus she always do things last minute, NOPE!
I should say is last sec.
She like to have the pattern that ALL OF A SUDDEN, shouting peoples' name and ask them do things in a RUSH.
Doesn't she should be very well organize and well planned since she is our leader?
If the water don't cross her hair, she won't ask for helps.
Plus, sometimes she always say we must finish all the tele calling.
HEY!You think we are just purely here for tele calling?
Can't you see sometimes your branch got many customers and in hand we got lot of other task need to be completed?
All she knows is keep on push push and push and rush you during the last minute.
This act i feel that she is not considerate enough and not suitable to be a leader.
A leader suppose to be a coach to guide and assist us rather than just pushing us to the dead wall.
Did she really consider and think of the overall condition before she say a word?

I feel so stress up and pressured,
Now that i finally understand why people in here asking me "how long will you work in here?" and i roughly know why Jess left.
Is very pressuring to chase sales weekly, is not an easy game.
Questions of job hopping or transfer department start bothering me.
I love to do sales but not in the extend of being pushed like this.
We are doing our part and she is just putting her ass on that comfy chair.
And all she want is just DIGNITY and PRIDE.

Life is such a pain in the ass.
No matter how good we perform is useless on such a person.
"No matter is a black or white cat, as it can catch mouse is a good cat."

12th Dec 2008

A battle for a week finally come to an end.
Where my big customer Mr. Devinder come to made his final decision on his RM1.395m mortgage loan.
He said that he will be at our branch at 10:30am.
We (Boss, Jenice and ME), anxiously waiting for his arrival.
Time seems to past so slow, I can even hear the clock tick tock-ing.
10:30am arrive but Mr. Devinder haven't appear yet.
I feel so anxious and nervous.
My boss and Jenice ask me, "where is your Mr. Devinder?"
I immediately give him a call and he answered my question,"I am on my way."
Around 11am he arrived.
Without delaying, I lead him up to the Priority Banking Centre.
We present our proposal of his loan inside the PB meeting room.
It was my 1st time handling such a big loan and also presenting in the meeting room.
But often i feel nervous and shut my mouth.
Jenice and boss come interfere and provide more information.
But Mr. Devinder don't seems to be happy with our holding period of 8 years.
He stunned us by throwing the question and silence to us.
Every 5 minutes, he remain silent.
Every silence stop my heart pumping.
I feel so nervous and so anxious whether he will or he won't put the pen on the paper.

After a long discussion,around 11:30am he finally looking for a PEN.
And that is the moment we have been waiting for a WEEK.
He signed and soon to be upgrade as our PB customer.
A moment of relief finally arrive to me.
After a lot of heart attack and surprise, this situation finally end.
I feel so happy and excited.
I almost passed out when he sign.
It might not be a big amount to others.
But for me, this is a big reward.

Lots of thanks and hugs to Jenice.
She helps me a lot and i learn a lot.
She put so much effort to help me get the deal done,
She say "I will not let you fail this deal. WE MUST WIN IT."
I feel so touch by her words and efforts.
THANKS!!!!!!!!!MUACKS~~~

I will keep on move forward and i believe i already have the momentum to keep on run.
Is just a beginning without an end to me.

Sunway Lagoon Trip

After a long waiting, my branch trip finally come to the play.
Though there is a few didn't turn up,but i believe we will still have lots of fun.
Mission of the trip is to throw Kelly and Lynne into the pool.
Haha......did we manage to do it?
Of course we did it.
With the helps from Allison and Leonard, they got no chance to fight back.
But still, Lynne is the V.I.P of the day. Haha.....
We went inside lagoon around 11am.
While we are walking towards the locker room,Farah notice that no peoples queue up for the scream park.
After a few seconds of doubt, we decided to make a move into the scream park.
The marshall of the scream park give us some warning.
He said "Do not touch the ghost,the ghost won't touch you."
It shows that, we are very SAFE and it reduce my nervous level.
Haha.......Inside the scream park is really dark and looks scary. (The effect and settings)
I quite like the early part where the ghost come sooooooooooo near to us.
There is one part we wear the 3D glasses to cross the bridge.
That part is nice. I love the effect and the moving bridge.
Overall i guess the scream is good.
Effect RATING : 8/10
Scary : 5.5/10

After scream park,we proceed to locker area to get change.
Then we bump into the rest of our groups and they are actually looking for FOOD. =.="
Then me,Ally and Kelly went to play water.
Nevertheless the 1st victim of course is Kelly to get wet.
Muahahaha~
Then Leo and Lynne joined into the team and ahem,Lynne is in danger.

Anyway,lots and tons of memories to share for this trip.
It will takes me 1 full day to finish type it and i guess there won't be sufficient space for me to finish it.
Just some summary of lagoon.
Hmm........wet park is still the same old school.
The safari was SO SO - LA.
While the extreme park, can consider ok.
But those more exciting stuff, we need to pay for it.
Thus it makes me feel that ALL PARK shouldn't be called ALL PARK.
Just another way of sunway planning to suck our wallet dry.
But i love the flying fox VERY much.
From the highest point of the suspension bridge all the way down to the surf beach area.
WOW~COOL MAN!
Bout the ATV, is a good experience.
But too bad they caps our speed as we need to follow the queue.
Without the speed being capped, i guess it will be even more fun.

We are able to get some nice pictures and will be posted in facebook soon.
We even got some playboy mag cover page.
Bet my colleagues in Jln Ipoh going to love it sooooooo much.
Haha..........

Funs and excitement all along.Memories will always be in my heart.
Thanks~

Crucial Battle Phase

When we start thinking that this is a dead end, actually we are wrong.
God always create hope for us and shine our path.
God always listen to our prayers.
This round i face a big war.
A war that i can't effort to lose.
"You might have win the battle,but you might lose the war."
A very good statement i shall say.
Thus this time, i wanna win BOTH!
You might think i am greedy, but this is the fact in this reality world.
Only winner shall survive.
This might be a war between SCB and Alliance.
I shall gain my reputation and APFM ranking increase to mid table.
I don't wanna stick in the bottom table.
So so memalukan leh.
Must follow up closely and try to close other case as well.
Just got to know why sometimes "times is not enough".
Anxious, excited and worried at 1 time.

Stress Begone

Working is full of pressure and challenge.
But if we know the way to overcome it, it is ENJOY the word we will feel.
Don't get hammered by this daily pressure.
Find a way to release it.
Since the globe is turning, time won't wait us.
We shall be the one to chase it.
So why live life with daily pressure?
Haha....lucky every Sunday i will go for badminton.
I realise by playing sports weekly we will feel better.
The satisfaction of victory and improvement is awesome.
It just makes me love badminton more and more.
Most important is, the moment i play is the moment i totally forgot bout my work loads.
The moment of game is fabulous.
I LOVE IT.

BUT, life goes on. Challenge is there for us to face it and conquer it.
Never give up. Again, WINNER NEVER QUIT, QUITTER NEVER WIN.
Feel stressful? Who wouldn't? This is life.
Find a way to release it, don't ever let stress kill us.
We are the evolve generation from our grand grand grand grand grand grand grand ancestor who survive through the stone age.
We CAN DO it.
If you think you can, you can!

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!

1 Week Past

Unbelievable....1 week of my block leave have finished.
There is a few friends of my asking "what is block leave?"
Let me explain,block leave is actually 5 days leave in a row.
So basically what have i done during block leave?
Actually, NOTHING. I just spend my times at home rest.
Then why i would have taken my block leave for no purpose?
Because i wanna clear my annual leave.
Plus i have hit my target.
If i don't clear now,and in future i can't hit my target i believe i can't take my block leave.
One of the worst thing during this holiday is i need to take my FMUTM exam.
And HURRAY!i PASS!!!!
Beside me,i shall congratz Ethan,Cecelia and Kelly as well.
Though all of us look kinda Zombie but worth it.
As long as we pass it!
Good job to you guys and girls.
Hope to see you all in the future.

Beside them,i wish to see my colleagues too.
Unexpectedly Mei already transfer to Saadiq branch.
Leaving Jalan Ipoh branch.
But nvm,we shall organise a sing K section sooner or later.
It shall be a great gathering to see Daphaney,Jess and Mei again.
Really got miss 3 of them.
Wishing them all the best and good luck in their career.

To Jess :New career bring new challenge and new adventure. May your new journey go smoothly and be happy with it.

To Daphne and Mei : Wish you 2 all the best in the new branch. Same thing, new branch new environment new challenge. Hope you both can adapt to it and be satisfy. God bless!

Yesterday i almost fainted when i played badminton for 3-4 hours.
But the satisfaction i got is the feelings of i learn something and improve a bit.
Feel like spending more times in badminton if possible to improve my skill to the next level.
Can't wait for every Sunday badminton session.
Anyway,what most important now is to prepare my working mood.
Start to fight for my GOAL!
I wanna score more and earn more.
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!
.

FMUTM

haihz~when i thought there is no need for me to see notes anymore,is actually a big wrong.
luckily previously i already got my insurance license.
but now i need to take unit trust.
hopefully after this is my last last paper that i need to sit for it.
see-ing the notes so thick,i feel dizzy.
whenever i start study it,i will feel lazy and tired.
haihz.....
hopefully this saturday i cann pull through.

The Reality Is Cruel

Thought that even i left JTM, me and him still can be friends.
Or even bro....
Maybe i am just to naive to believe in him.
All his wordings is so fake now when i look backward.
His words and purely just words.
I wrongly justify him and believe him.
But anyway, it was great that i learn some morale values.
And my self confidence boosted in a way and it helps me in my current job.
Just one thing i sincerely don't understand.why can't they just be real?
Is it so hard?
Or because since the moment i left JTM i am a loser to them?
Thus giving me a cold shoulder?
This guys never learn and they always think they are always right.
What they want they must get it.
In a way, it might be a good motivation side.
But if over the limit, i could say they are heartless.
Anyway, i have no more single connection with them.
I delete them off my memory.
I enjoy my new family.
They show me the true side of them at the moment.
And they really guide me with cares and try to help me with their best.
At least here i can feel humanity and supports.

Farewell JTMs, last but not least i will still wish them all the best.

Hard Life and Challenge

Life never been easy.
I start feel the pressure and stress of working under quota.
Though i submitted a few loans application.
But in the end, all was rejected.
Man, how to hit my ESAU?
How to take leave for next week?
If continue like this i will have numerous stress and pressure hit on me.
God bless me please.

Money Not Enough 2

This was actually a great movie with lots of value.
It teach us to treasure something that money can't earn back.
Mother love is the greatest source on earth.
They take care of us since we are in their tummy till we build our own family and finally they will leave this world.
Suddenly a question pop out in my mind.
"What can i do to repay my mum?What can i do to make her happy?"
I guess i must start to work hard to achieve my goals.
At least bring my mum go travel to 1 place or 2.
Mum and dad,i love you.
Thanks for all the time staying at my side.
Mum and dad,you both are the greatest love of all in the whole universal.

3 Weeks Roaming At Menara SC.

3 Weeks Roaming At Menara Standard Chartered.
The Journey begun on the 8th of September 2008 With Country Induction Course.
As expected,it wasn't a good training for me.
As i know that i tend to fall asleep and feel bored with just purely listening.
And as a result,i did fall asleep in the class sometimes.
The 1st 2 days was great as we save a lot of money.
Cause. . . . .lunch is provided.But anyhow,local branch are not eligible for any claims.
So basically,we need to pay our own part.Even lunch are not claimable.

Beginning stage,human nature reaction is "Shit!How to pass this 3 weeks o?"
But in the ending,"Oh my,3 weeks passed so fast.I wish to stay longer."
Haha~It was a total honeymoon at here.When you are thirsty,you can go to the pantry for a cup of milo,coffee or tea.
Or you can go to the cooler and get some soft drinks such as light coke,100 plus,crysanthemum,soya or mineral water.
Or we can just go and have some walk around 16th floor.
One of the bad thing of this training is that we don't have access card.
This making us inconvenient to go around.Even to the toilet.
But luckily during the 1st half of our training,Kamal provide us with his access card.
And then 2nd half Tarmizi provide us with his card since Kamal's card become malfunction.

Our lunch was luxurious i can say at ONLY THE BEGINNING.
Making Pavillion as our canteen.No wonder people said Standard Chartered employee kaya.
But realizing the cost is too expensive,i asked my sister for some advise on lunch.
She suggested me to go Wisma Cosway for some cheaper option.
And for around 1-2 weeks continuously me and some of my friends went there.
We almost got phobia with the food around there.
But there is some food which taste good and worth to eat also de.

Bout the training,it was good and there is some part which is boring.
More over,i can't just listen listen and listen.
The 1st weeks,i realize that most of the people are very focus and hardworking.
They copy the notes,advise and etc non stop.
Entering the 2nd week,i start see the pace decrease.Some just pure listening,some just copy important parts.
And 3rd weeks,the atmosphere is not there anymore.
I feel that many of us feel bored and tired with listening.
Haha,end up many people almost fall asleep.

This training i did absorb some of the information that i needed.
However i believe i still need to do more on field to understand better.
Experience is always the most important factor.
There is only theory given without any practical training.
Thus,sometimes it's really "Left in,Right out".
What we get here is just a piece of picture of our product.
And we have lots of contact,so that we know who shall we refer to in certain problem and question.

Beside product knowledge,friendship is another best thing we obtain in here.
Knowing people around Malaysia and even some people from MSC.
Friendship that is build,will never fall.
It is just as strong as the Rome Empire and even greater than Great Wall Of China.
Not just a bind with the outstation people,even my own branch.
I get to know and understand better bout my own colleauges.
And 1 more,we get to know a funny guy called Ethan.
He ki siao gila one.haha~~~
Alan,David,Kamal,Mizi,Ethan,Natalie,Daphaney,Serene,Jacky,Cecilia,Sue Yan,Linda,Rowena,Sophia,and Kelly you guys ROCKS!
Especially Sophia.She give me 1 deep impression,
One of the most active in the classes.
I love you guys.3 weeks past with memoria with you all.
Hope to see you all soon.
And wish you guys do well in your job.
Good luck and all the best.
May god be with you all.

29/08/08

People used to say "Time past so fast."
Without realizing it,i already worked in Standard Chartered for 3 weeks.
During this 3 weeks,i get to learn a lot of things.
Though it were said the most basic thing in banking area,but still we need to learn it,practice it,and master it.
The colleagues i have here is very nice and friendly.
Used to be one of the best branch of standard chartered in KL area.

Working in here i start to realize what i need the most.
And of course,MONEY is the key point.
Like what Jenice said,if you are not motivated by money why work in sales?
At the same time,i learn a lot of things.
Though many people might say "Dude,you are still 22.Young,energetic and got lot of future."
But think deeply and double think it,yes i might be young.
But each and every single second is passing by without delaying nor waiting for us.
Is ME,MYSELF who is fighting against the time.
Is not my YOUNG fighting the time.
And if we don't work hard now,we don't strive hard for our goals,when will it be?
30 yrs old?32 yrs old?or even older?
NO!time just don't wait for us.we must fight for it while we are still young and energetic.
We must be ambitious and set goal nice.
i still remember what Rico told me.
"SHORT TERM PAIN,LONG TERM GAIN.IF WE DON'T DO IT NOW,LATER MIGHT BE TOO LATE."
This statement still deep down in my heart.
I will carry it along with me and walk with me.

We can't predict future.Not even tomorrow.
So since we are capable of doing something now,we must try our best to achieve it.
Fulfill it and work it out.
Don't ever WAIT and give ourselves excuses to avoid it.

I also understand the reason why old people said "Man,must always put career in the 1st place".
In this competitive world,we are competing with human and also economy.
Do sales is about competition,
Not just with the people and market,and most important is OURSELVES.
Seeing the aggressiveness of Jess and Jenice working so hard to hit their target,i know they are the colleagues i need to keep me motivated and feel competitive.
Once after my training end,i will try to keep on track with them.
And the biggest enemy of mine,is MYSELF.
I know i am still fresh and empty.
I must keep myself improve and learn from them till my fruitful days come.
I will not left behind.I will chase and stalk their performance.
And of course,hopefully i will overtake them sooner or later in the sense of performance.

Convocation 2008

26th Of July.

A remarkable date,a great day.
A long awaited convocation has finally arrived.
7.20am I woke up and start prepare myself to college.As last minute i get to know graduand are suppose to reach college by 8am for gown dress up.
As i reach college around 8:30am,i was totally blur and clueless.
Seeing all the people in the room busy changing gown and dressing up the hood.
Dressing up the gown is piece of cake,but the hood is kinda troublesome.
I am helpless and clueless at that moment.At the same time,i feel that my college relationship with students from school of management was bad. *Laughing*
Anyway,i manage to dress up around 9am with helps from 2 lecturer and my friend hui hui.
After that around 9:30am we receive further instruction on the seating and we move up to 5th floor,our main hall.
Though the decoration at 5th floor was not really grand but after all it is still acceptable.
Through out the 4 hours of speech and presentation of cert,my comment would be boring,thirsty,hungry,and hot.*Future graduand,be prepare for it ya.*
After all those were done,of course it was photo section time.
Here i would like to share some of the photo taken on that day.

Queuing up for cert presentation

My dad,me and King Wai

My Dad and Me

Me and King Wai

My dad and my sister

Me and Leona

Mui Yoke and Jenny

Me and Uma

That's all i would like to share here.
For all my lovely friends who would love to see more of my convo picture,go to my friendster profile ya.Thanks~~

That's all for my convo experience.Want to know more?Ask me personally lor.....haha.
I would like to take the opportunity to thanks a few person for my success to convo.

1st and for most,i would love to thanks my parents.
For years they supported my education from low to top.
They never give up on me and they always support me.
They provided me millions of advise and encouragement to excel forward.
Without them,there is no me.
Without their support there won't be any future for me.
Thanks mum and dad.
I love you~~~

Secondly,i would like to thanks to mui yoke and jenny for attending my convo to take picture with me.
And also for the lovely snoopy.It's a great gift and a memorable day to take picture with both of you.
Definately the appearance from both of you spice up my convo.
Beside,mui yoke is one of the big support i have in my college life to keep on going.
She is the one advise me during my hard time and are always there when i need her.
Thanks for being there for me.

Thirdly,my college buddies:
King Wai,Aiyak,Jack,Sest Nee,Sai Hoong,Swee Yeong,Hui Hui,Joey,Leona,Shin,Erin,Chee How,Pick Ling and others classmates and coursemates (Sorry if i left out your name >.<")
Without you all,college life would be soooooo dead.
Because of all this companion,and the friendship it bright up my life at college.
College life would never be fun and memorable without you guys in the picture.

Lastly and not to forget,definately is the lecturer in UCSI.
Miss.Jasmine,Sarojini,Mr.Ho,Mr.Alan,Mr.Quah KS,Mr.Choi KS,Miss.Khor Ming Ming,and etc.
Their effort of teaching and guidance will always be recognise.
Though i might not have close relationship with them,but i deeply appreciate their heart and kindness to help us in our academic.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!THANKS FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!!!

That mark the end of my study life and a new starting point for the next level.
Wishing all my friends who have graduate all the best in their career and for those who still pursueing their studies,good luck and all the best.

P/S:I would love to attend your convocation.So remember invite me ya.

Job Interview

22nd July 2008.
I have an appointment with Distinctive Production company as Brand Executive.
When i reach the company blocks,it's actually a subsidiary company under Eureka.
Eureka is a company where they do corporate gifts.
Example: you register with AIA,and you will get some gift like cup and etc. That is where Eureka come into the play.They sell all those gift.

And now they have a new department where specialize in brand.
Because some of the big company tend to give the gift representing themselves.
So a high value gift is prefer.Thus,brand executive is needed to promote and sell the product to all this big company managing director.
So if i were to accept this job,i will need to deal with all this higher level people in the management.

The person who interview me,look and sound very interested to recruit me.
But at the same time,i realize i am not very keen to this job.
I don't know what is the main reason.
But there is a lot of things playing in my mind which i don't know why this will happen.

To deal with all this managing director class people,we need to have different skills from what i used to have in JTM.
The image projection is very very very extremely important.
And the presentation skill would be more formal and more professional.
And question for me here is,"Am i able to convince them and sell to them?"
Or shall i just give it a try?

I would really hope for a job from bank actually.
But i don't wanna waste time just by waiting.
Maybe i shall wait for the offer and see how.
Then only make up my mind?

Just hope god will give me some signal and show me the way.

Don't Doubt

I realize that we human tend to have 1 thing in common.
Which is we like to doubt and think think first.
Every time we want to make a decision,we will for sure pause for a while.
A few minutes,few hours,few days,weeks,months or even years.
During the process of doubting,we actually tend to lost the golden chances.
Life is unpredictable.
"We can't even predict tomorrow."
This is a sentence which Rico normally used to persuade people to sign up with WWF.
I realize this sentences applies in life and every single decision making.
If we keep on doubt and think,it's actually wasting our time.
Because during that process,we never take any step nor action.
Which means we are N.A.T.O (No Action Talk Only) at that moment.
What's the point if we don't act?

And human always have this problem in their mind,"What if........,If let's say this .............and etc".
We used to think something that might happen if we take this action and that might happen if we choose the other option.
If there is so many "IF" and the chances for us to predict future,i believe all of us would have become a millionaire.Why?Cause we can foresee future and hit the lottery.

During the first month in JTM,i use to doubt while approaching people.
Typical question that always play around my mind is:

1. What if they reject me?
2. What if they don't stop?
3. What if they just ignore me?
4. What if they give me tons of negative?
5. What if they no credit card?
6. what if they don't sign and waste my time?
7. and BLA BLA BLA................

That's one of the reason i fail to stop and do a full presentation to improve myself.
And i always saw the people that i "doubt" to stop i let them go and end up Rico and some other senior signed them up.

That's how i realize life is unpredictable.If there is a chance,no matter it's a small or even slim we must GRAB it.
Cause...............WE WON'T KNOW WHAT WILL THE RESULT BE.
Life is a "TRIAL AND ERROR" process.
Never try,never know.

Every second is gold.Who knows the decision that u made in just a single second would have change your life or change your view?

If fail or the result of the decision is bad,just take it as an experience,learn it,stand up and walk again.
That's why "EVERYDAY IS A LEARNING PROCESS".

No matter what decision it is,don't doubt too long.
Second chance will never ever come often.
Life,studies,love and work.......everything is just the same.
Take it or leave it.Do or die mentality is good in a way.

Inconsiderate

Why people always tend to judge things from their perspective?
Why don't they look from the victim side?Or view it the other way?
Or best way,just accept other's people decision?

I know there is people doing good or even great in JTM.
But there is also many one who fail in JTM.I guess the ratio of success and fail is 1 : 10
As for me,i left because i am not happy in there.
I am not satisfy with Jack.I don't really like the environment anymore.
Is not about sales!I believe i have the skill,but i am LAZY to do it.
Cause i am not interested with it and I've got no heart to continue.
Why can't they just accept it and be considerate?
Why must they say "i could do easily in this job,i really don't understand why you can't?"
Why are they so judgmental?
Why can't they be like Robert or Janiel (The CDA admin)?
Try to put themselves in our shoe and things will not be so complicated.
Why they have to make things so complicated?

Even i left,i still receive some feed back from the those who is still in JTM.
And the feed back is a NEGATIVE feed back.
I really wonder,have they ever think of their failure reason?
Since they so like to compare,why don't they compare themselves with other APPCO subsidiary?
Why Pacific can do so well?Why they got no problem to recruit and retain people?
Or they feel they got no problem at all?the problem is with those who quit JTM?

Ah Pak San Journey

9th Of July 2008: Journey To Ah Pak San
8am King the Skinny reach my home.We go Ah Pak San and begin our journey around 8:15am.

Summary of Ah Pak San:
Divided into 7 levels.
Level 1,2 and 3 is hardest part.
Level 4,5,6 and 7 is quite relax.
Route to waterfall is another challenging area. (30 minutes walk from station 5)
The summit is at Saga area. (Nearby Ampang)

Brief Story On Our Journey:

Climbing up the hill in level 1,2 and 3 is really a good challenge.No point saying it here,so i better leave it to you all to try out and see how was it.Just 1 word "SYOK".My pair of leg really shaking after past level 1,2, and 3.The energy that i used,really fantastic.While climbing,i really notice that most of the people who climb that day all aged 30+.That shows that me and king wai is the youngest already. *Giggle*
While at the station 5 rest place,we saw 3 auntie.They talked a lot and say "Come early go water fall then continue go top is very good".One of the tree got a sign "To the right:Waterfall 30 minutes walks".After a short rest,me and king wai walk towards water fall.Walking half way,we aware something is wrong.WHY ARE WE NOT MOVING UPWARDS?It's a plain straight road and no sign of "Level 6".Shit!Guess the waterfall and level 6 direction is separated.What we guessed is correct.But anyway,the water there is very chilling and nice.So so so refreshing after some hard time.Lol.Here are some of the picture of the waterfall while we are resting.





Me and King Wai tend to invite a group of friend to go there play water.Since it's not too big nor not too small.Suitable for a small group of friend.Too bad that day me and him is not well prepared for water splashing.If not,hahahahahaha!!!!!

NOTE:We both wear same style that day. ^^

After waterfall,we use another 30 minutes to reach station 5 and later proceed to level 7 the peak.Once we reach level 7,there is a group of people camping there?I not sure is it camping or just 1 day trip.Cause i saw gas stove,food and etc.There is one uncle there tell us that we actually already walk till Saga Hill which is nearby Ampang area.Another 20 minutes walk,we will reach Saga Hill restaurant.Which is located at Taman Muda.Most of the people were surprise with us that we actually climb the hill without any preparation.We only bring a 350ml water through out our journey. *Faint*



Some of the picture at the peak.We are HERO!!!wakakaka~

Time Spent On This Journey:
Starting point to Waterfall: 1H 07M
Waterfall to Saga Summit: 1H 04M
Sage Summit to Starting Point: 58M
*Used my handphone as Stopwatch.

That's the journey me and king wai had.
So who is next wanna join me for water splashing or hill climbing?

Relief

Dated on 5th July 2008.It was my last day in JTM.
Early morning whole JTM core leader knew it was my last day.
Jack indirectly shoot me during the bell ringing section and he try to spoil the friendship between me and Cheah.
hahahahaha~~~~how silly is jack?why is he so childish?
The moment i walking to the car after de-merch,my heart turned heavy.
I will miss this big family.Especially Rico,Yoko,Robert,and other newcomer/brothers sisters in JTM.

The friendship and brotherhood that i build with Rico was one of the greatest thing i can have in here.
At the beginning i thought he will disappointed with my attitude and we could never be friend anymore.
But,unexpectedly he replied my sms early saturday morning.
It was quite touching that i still have him as my friend and even maybe as my brother.

After quitting JTM,i feel at ease.
I feel relief and relax.
Looking backwards at the days i had in JTM was exhausting.
But the sweet and fun memories will always be in my heart too.
For the past 2 months i had,it's never been easy and i can see a lot of changes in me.
Especially "From non smiling face to a smiling face" which is a very obvious improvement noticed by Rico and the group of people in JTM.

I will never forget everything that is taught by Rico,Yoko and Robert.
As i treasure the relationship that we had more than a ton of gold.
Wishing them all the best in their journey in JTM.
As for me,"things come around and goes around" and my life is still like a unsettle puzzle.
A new journey and adventure will begin soon.

God bless~

Disatisfactoy

I said i will tried my best.
But end up i give up. . . .and i don't give a damn to my job at all.
Too many thing make me feel fed up.
My final interview,Jack said no "FAVOURTISM".
Hmm.............how to define this word?
It mean no favorable or extra concern about a person in the company.Everyone is treated equally.
BULL SHIT!
One of the example,Sam. I believe many people will feel that Jack likes him a lot.
Everyday he will mentioned bout SAM SAM SAM~~~
He never dump him into a BAD area.All the while he will be located at highly potential places.
Jack spend his time with Sam.Guiding him how to be leader and management.

Second example,Desmond.Since the 1st day he joined very obvious Jack likes him a lot too.
Jack even went down to the field personally and give him guidance and coaching personally.
Spending most of his times with Desmond.Even Desmond don't have sales,but he still can eat lunch with Jack at Leisure Mall Wong Kok.If others no sales and eat with him at Wong Kok,what will Jack said?
"How many sales you got?How many full pitch you got?GO DO MORE LA!" *LOL*

Desmond even use his field time to fetch Jack back to office from Leisure Mall.Isn't that time consuming and time diffusion?
Jack dare to say me about fetching Ai Leen back home is a bit waste of time.He dare say "I not very angry with him cause he fetch my people back home cause of injury."
"Not very angry" mean he still got angry.
And he said i am wasting my time.
F*CK him!

Desmond haven't complete his COD (Cycle Of Developement) stage 1. Which is the basic in our company and Desmond himself said he don't know how to teach it.
BUT...................Jack still give him observer.
FANTASTIC!!!JUICE BY THAT.

No FAVOURTISM? BULL SHIT!!!!

Overall,he is just an owner that want people to obey his word and take his word for granted.
By the way,for those who reading, let me ask you;"you have an idol,do you need to follow what your idol do?"
EG: I set Michael Jordan as my idol due to his success. Does that mean i need to follow each and every single things of him?
If your answer is NO,you will be screwed by Jack.We need to follow our idol's footstep one.

And 1 more thing,i fetched him back home to the doorsteps.I never receive a single cent from him.But i am fine cause i am willing to fetch him and i never demand the money from him.
But when he get down, he tell me "Justin,i also don't want to pay you la.Just now my heart feel like pay you one.But i really not in the mood to pay you.Don't know why you always so bad luck.Every time Cheah fetch me,i sure pay him one.And bla bla bla.................."
MAN!!!WTF?
Did i ask you for petrol?
You want pay then pay la don't want then just STFU and get your F*CKING ass off from my car.
Don't waste my precious time to rest and go back home.
What he trying to signal?My face looks suck?Or he fancy Cheah more?

Man,why can't he just take other people opinion and try use his smart brain to think?
If he is willing to listen and change,i believe he could be a better person.
Have him ever doubt why his company never grow?
Always range from 10-15 peoples after a year he established Jack Tan Marketing?
Don't he feel that he himself got problem?

And oh yeah,this friday is going to be my last day.i GIVE UP and i FED UP.
Enough is enough.He better don't argue with me without logic when i want to resign.
I definitely will fight back to protect myself and my dignity.

Dilemma

Haihz.............*whinning*
After another few more weeks of trial.
I realize i am not strongly motivated.The mind set and action is totally vice versa.
I realize on field i am just a lazy bump and easily get de-motivated.
Now i feel like quitting.Verbally,i make my decision.
But whenever Jack or Rico called me,i feel in dilemma.
Since they all give me so much care,shall i give up?
Like what Yoko told me,"the leader haven't give up on you,why shall you give up on yourself?"

Haihz............really don't know how.
"To climb to the top of the mountain is easy,but to stay at the top is hard."
The word "CONSISTENCY" is definitely easy to be said but hardly can be done to me.
I've calculated,if cannot hit 8 pieces our weekly wages is only RM420.
Which means RM1.6k per month.
With the long working duration and hard works,don't you feel that working at office is better?

Thus to be fair to myself and my boss,i think this week i will give it my very last try.
I won't nagged out and lazy for this whole week.
If my sales blossom then i can consider.
If not,then i think i should say farewell.
8 pieces is my target.Is a "Do or Die" mentality.

If success then i can consider to try to be consistent.
If fail,i shall give up and look for something more comfort and suitable for me.

Good side of this job:

• Career opportunities
• Relax and fun environment
• High income if able to hit 8-10 pieces
• Peoples in here
  

Bad side of this job:

• Long working duration
• Dead meat when 0 sales
• Pressure by sales

Give it 1 more try.1 and the last 1.

Update [7.6,2008] [ On Work]

Without notice,my last post is dated on March.
Time past so fast.I can't even grab it,all i can do is just see it running through.
I work as insurance agent and change my job.

Now i am a management trainee and working for APPCO. (Known as COBRA in UK.)
My company name is Jack Tan Marketing.It's been a month i have been working for them.
Numerous complaint, numerous thought of giving up, numerous time of exhaustion and numerous time of negative thoughts. Argh.............why so many numerous?

Working this job is complete different from my experience and expectation.
It's never going to be an easy journey.
The 1st 2 weeks was complete disaster. Going under the hot sun, chasing peoples to approach, and etc.
OMG~why am i doing this?I am at least a dip. holder.

Though this job do have a future of ownership,but can i with stand all the challenge and obstacle?

"Winner never quit, quitter never win". Am i going to be a winner?or a quitter?

Seriously,without strong support and advise from Rico, i believe i already collapse.
Currently i stay is because of him. He teach me a lot in mental building, personality building and working skills. Really wanna thanks him. He is the man,he is my bro.I feel so touch sometimes.

Though i don't know how long can i stand all these, but i will try my best to maintain a good working ethic in this job. I shall start prepare myself for more and more goal to achieve.Continue to blast and work hard,hard and harder.

See-ing so many new people coming in and old people leaving, i realise this is a job where the final people who stay is a winner. ^^

Btw, i am proud of this job. When there is people tell me "I really respect and admire you all.For the courage that you all have and the boldness to approach peoples just like that.This is something i can't do." This is what many people tell me. ^^

Last thing:
"Always Feel Proud With What You Are Doing.No One Shall Decide What We Want And What We Should Do."

Be Strong and Stay Strong.

Surprise Morning Call

I am sleepy,i still blur-ing,i still unconscious.
I slept at 5am after a few sips of hazel nut coffee,it keep me awakes.
Around 8:30am i was awake because of my daughter wanted to go down.
Around 10:30am,my phone rang.
It was a call from a person called Roy from Hong Leong bank.
He ask me to attend an interview on tomorrow (28th of March) for financial consultant post.
I got to apply this job from jobsdb.com.
I am happy that there is bank who actually call me to attend interview.
This at least give me a chance to chance my desire job.
I will try my best,my very best in tomorrow interview.
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!
May God be with me and guide me through.

RO botting tips

I have been running 7 RO bots lately.
And my CPU usage boost up to 75%-100% usage.
Oh craps~~~my pc reaction is even slower than a tortoise (Sometimes).
Especially when transferring file,open webcam or open WMA.
My PC will have a few seconds delay for that particular program to response.
Thus i browse through www.openkore.com and i found a solution
This is the link: http://www.openkore.com/wiki/index.php/CPUUsage#How_do_I_see_my_CPU_Usage.3F

Great!After follow the instruction from that,i saw my CPU usage drops <30%.

"Bot" seems to be a simple things.but after explore carefully,there is so much things to learn and set.Including those "Plugin" and "Macro".

zzZ............such a complicated things.

20th of March Kara OK Round 2

All of the sudden at 1.30pm my phone ring.
An unsaved contact number display from the screen.
I answered and it was Christy's voice.
She ask me to sing-K where actually they booked 2pm-6pm.
She told me her friend last minute break promise and it was a waste to pay 6 person price where there is only 5 peoples singing.
After a few minutes of thought,i decided to go sing with her.
Around 3:30pm i reach Low Yat Plaza Red Box.
Got to know 4 of her friends,but i can't really remember the names.
Cause i have a poor memories (very sorry to them).
But i noticed that they are very friendly and nice.
And i do think that 1 of them got a good voice.

Around 6pm all of them left.Only me and Christy remain at there.
And omg,it's 6pm and the system still on.
Without second thought we 2 continue sing.
The singing time i guess is extended to 12am......cause the system never stop.
But we both give up at 8pm++.
Cause we are totally exhausted and don't even have a drops of water.
How to sing?

Overall i sing badly.....my voice are terrible that day.
So memalukan~~~keke~~~~~

19th of March

After spending 16 days to collect a 7 digit from this poh poh,i finally got to sms her and call her.
lolx~~~(so fun to collect each digit when she online.)
Then i am "fortunate" enough to find her have lunch.
The whole morning,i was wondering where shall i go for lunch with her and etc.
but still,in the end i didn't come out with a proper plan.
but the destination i have chosen mid valley for sure since there is more variety to choose.

once reach there,we still wondering what to eat and where to eat.
and she chosen chili.
haha~
no doubt this place is nice and have a good environment.
and btw,IT WAS MY 1ST TIME.kaka~~~
the shoulder lamb (RM24.90) was delicious and the portion was acceptable for a guy.
beside that,i feel there is still many food actually worth a try.
and er,since it was my first time i wanted to take picture of my food to post in here.
but too bad,to avoid being titled "cam-whore" i dun want to take.
cause that poh poh admit herself is a....ahem.............."cam-whore".wakakakaka~~~

it was a great lunch time that i had.
chatting with her really full of laughter (cause she laugh very cute one)
no doubt you are a friend worth hanging out with and you simply rocks.
i really hope to see you more often and know u better.keke~~

Neway Kara-OK

LOL~8th of march suppose to be a day i hide at home.
It was Malaysia election day.
Many people worried that riot will be around town around once the result is out,
But around 12pm christy gave me a call and we decided to sing K at 2pm at KL Time Square.
So around 1:30pm i went out since i need to give her,suk kim and also soh zai a ride.
But OMG,unexpectedly there is a super big traffic jam all the way and almost every area.
Cheras leisure mall,yulek round about, MRR2, jalan ampang, zoo negara and etc.
I totally frustrated to see jam everywhere plus those car moving in a zig zag way during jam.
Where the hell actually they can go?
During half way to setapak,christy called me and we decide that i go time square straight away and they take LRT and Monorail go.
It was a wise decision since taking train is much faster than me picking them up.
We sing from 3pm-6pm.
OMG,singing K with them was lots of fun.christy's sister shout and scream till so many.
Soh zai also join into the screaming party and of course i will never left out.
Scream till lung a bit pain.lol.......
Beside that,they actually quite a K fans.
Since all the song they choice is really great and they sing it well also.
It's very enjoyable to sing with them.
Looking forward for another section to sing with them during the buffet time.

Career Fair

It's 29th of Feb....
4 yrs only happens once this "date".
It's suppose to be a special day but it seems no different to me.
I turn on my radio while driving to PJ to fetch seng.
The Mix.fm DJ said that 29th is a special day cause girls can propose to boys.
So dun be shy and purpose to them.
LOL~~i wish i have girl propose to me also.lol~~~

Anyway,main highlight for 29th is Career Fair held at KLCC.
Last week i was there working as an exhibitor in MAS fair.
And 29th i return to the same place as a job seeker.
Lots of information i gathered,and obviously just having a diploma is a disadvantage,
Most of the banking job offer to me is "SALES","LOAN",and "CREDIT CARD".
Sad case i am lazy in studies.Not going to further my studies already.
I submit all my application to every bank that was there on that day.
Hope any of them give me a call for interview.
My main target is Public Bank and Alliance bank.

Hope my wish will come true.

Modem GG-ed by lightning

6 months after purchasing modem from aiyak,it finally bid farewell to me on the 25th midnight.
Just 1 loud and strong lightning strike,and a sound of "plak" end everything.
My house auto blackout and after we switch on the power.
I turn on my pc of course.Like i expected,i can't connect to the internet.
I suspect it was my network card problem since my modem ethernet light didn't blink.

So early next morning i ask aiyak to call me.
And we both go to low yat to purchase a new network card and i need aiyak to help me plug in.
Once reach my home,and we start plug in the network card.
As a result,the problem wasn't from network card.
And we start suspect it was my modem ethernet being struck.
In my heart i was worried the situation will go worst if the problem is not from modem.

I followed aiyak to his office in Taming Jaya to test my modem.
Thanks god.It was my modem ethernet problem.
So i alone drive to Mines Shopping Centre to purchase new modem.

And hurray,once the new modem installed my internet is back to life.
But of course my wallet diminish just like that.
RM93 modem,RM19 network card and RM8 pc fans.

Shall i be happy or sad?
Speechless bout it..........

MAS Fair

22nd of Feb till 24th of Feb is MAS[Malaysia Airline] Fair.
Where i was hired as a free lance to work in this fair for RM80/day and RM20 food allowance.
It was a total hectic job where we can only have 30 minutes lunch and dinner break.(10 minutes walk come and go,5 minutes queue up for food and that's mean we only got 15 minutes to eat)
The working time was freaking long.The fair begins from 10am-10pm but we need to arrive at 9am.OMG~Thanks to the biatch fenny.I hate her badly.
I thought she is our supervisor.But later on,a friend of mine told me that she is daughter of boss.
No wonder she talk so much but act so little.
She keep on tail on me asking me distribute flyers non stop.
After distribute 3-4 hours,i take some rest for around 1 hour,she notice me and ask me go distribute flyer again.WTF!is she mad or am i easy to be bully?

Anyway,i am happy to make new friends.All of them are funny and friendly.
Beside that i also open my sales account.
I sold tokyo honshu package.6 pax of customer register for that package.
1 pax around RM4.7k.which means i did around RM28k sales just in 1 round.lolx....

Totally no experience.Facing all the question like "how far is it from chiangmai and chianglun","how much the transport cost?","is the food really that good for honshu package?",and bla bla bla.
Wei,come on la~i am just a 3 days part timer.how the hell i know all this?lol.

This mas fair,thanks to all this guys who actually make my time past so fast (Angeline,Soh Zai,Cat,Suk Kim,Robert,Ah Wah,Roy Zai and many more).

And yeah,i work just opposite my 2nd sister company booth.lolx~~~
But most of the time i spend standing behind of my booth and hiding from that fenny.

Last night of the fair,we exchange phone number and also email so that we all can keep in touch,
This bring backs memory of primary school.lolx~~
Didn't do that since Pesta 2000 back in Sitiawan.Wakakakaka...........

Really happy to know them and hope friendship forever. ^^

Update [18.02.2008]

Where have i been these few days?
lolx~~~mari saya update sikit bout my where about.

6th days of CNY [12th of feb]
Went uphill [Genting] with wui hoong,yew seng and wai choong.The 4 brave warriors march on.11am reach McD at genting klang.12pm continue our journey.Around 12:45pm reached top of the hill and looking for parking at genting parking.From 16th floor we march down to 10th floor to get a parking slot.Enter the casino in genting after that.It only cost us 5 minutes to place bet and lose our budgeted gambling cost.The 3 fallen warriors appeared.They are ME,yew seng and wai choong.lolx~And our last warrior wui hoong,succesfully defended our dignity with a profit of RM50 after numerous strategy and tactic.After we left genting casino,we go to 1st world starbuck.On the way there,suki called me.OMG~she is there too and she actually saw me where i didn't notice her.She join us for a chat at 1st world starbucks.Around 4pm,we left genting and head back to KL.

Then arrive at my home around 6pm.Joining us for a small gambling is king wai and beh.around 11pm we went for dinner at "sin lok zin".That's basically my 6th day of CNY.

7th-8th day of CNY [13th and 14th of feb]
The fallen warrior totally get a K.O.Bladder and vomit keeps me sleeping and rest in this 2 days.out of 48 hours,i slept for around 30 hours i think.

9th day of CNY [15th of feb]
My big day,my birthday and my favourite number of every month.Dated theng wan and vanessa for lunch and just walk around.theng wan left us after lunch since she is too tired.me and vanessa went touring around KL.lolx~and finally we end up at balakong jusco sing k at green box from 5:15pm-8pm.After that,king wai give me a called.Asking me for gambling and find me for my birthday.Ended up around 10:30pm reach home after sending vanessa to bkt,jalil and fetching wui hoong and king wai to my house.The candidates who came to my house on that night is the big winner wui hoong,losing streak king wai and wai choong and also our black "Jack".Around 1am dismiss since jack got something to deal with.Wow~i am lucky to win RM20.Thanks guys~wakakakakaka~~~

10th day of CNY [16th of feb]
Woke up at 2:30pm~and straight away my phone rang~Screen display a call from wing hoe.But the one who talk to me is actually king wai.needless to say,event of the day is gambling again.this round at king wai's house at 4pm.Largest army ever from all the gambling event i had this CNY.Consist of King wai the host,beh the pretender,wui hoong the god of gambler,black Jack,wing hoe,yew seng the fallen warrior,banana the son of god,and me the middle man~OMG~that's around 10 ppls.Banker of the day is King wai's mum.His mum loose RM30 and win back RM30.In mid way jack and wing hoe left.left the 8 of us with king wai's mum.In the end of the gambling,auntie loose RM40.I am one of the last man standing with RM21,yew seng RM15+,and others.Me,king wai,yew seng and banana have our dinner at the KK food court a.k.a 118 food court.After dinner we went to dot com at connaught for dota and game.I left around 11pm (earlier than them) cause seprenna and agnes came to connaught mcd to find me.we sit and chat till 4am.it's a long night after listening to something important and private.

11th day of CNY [17th of feb]
Just simply took some rest at home as i feel really tired.And actually last few days also didn't really have appetite to eat as i am not feeling well.

That's all about last few days.out of 11th days of CNY i gamble 5 days.i also feel myself like an addicted gambler.anyway it's CNY and that's what me normally do once in a year in this grand festive season.Result of gambling up to date is LOST of RM40+.

Tired and exhausted~Have a break....Kit Kat~
Ciaoz~

Face of a Pro Gambler Losing Money

10022008@4th day of CNY

On the 2nd day of CNY,i spent my whole day at home online and rest.
Middle of the night (3am++) i chatted with my VIP.
She and me experienced the same thing.
We both loose RM50 at home becoming "1 up" banker.
OMG,that's so sad for the both of us.
But i believe our luck will be back and is going to be our turn soon.


The 3rd day:
It's 4:42am and i am still awake.
I just took my home made bak kut teh and digesting it. :P
I reached home at 3am+ from my friend's house (King Wai and Aiyak).
At King Wai's house,i loose RM5 after 2-3 hours.
I SMSed TKK and Sha Sha.
TKK said if continue loose u should stop gambling (That's what i am thinking as well) and Sha Sha said my luck will be back during the next round (and it really comes true).
After approximately bout 2-3 hours of gambling at Aiyak's house,i won back some money.keke~
Maybe is some blessing from god and also thanks to the support provided by TKK and Sha Sha.lolx~
And yeah~OMG,by playing "in between" of RM0.50 per person and RM0.10 minimum betting,middle can even stack up to RM10+.
Really stress and hand shaking when want to grab all the money away.
Really "pek cheh" and "sueh" when i saw Aiyak "hit the post" for more than 5 times.

It was a tiring section but at the same time it was full of laughter to see King make some funny move.
We watched "Meet the spartans" earlier at 4:10pm at Cheras Leisure Mall GSC.
It was my 2nd time watching this movie,but i still found that it was funny.

Today will be the 4th day and my pre planning is sitting at home and plan the following few days what should i do~
I am exhausted and that's all for now~
Zzz...........................................

1st Day of CNY

Finally this day have arrived.
Time to get some money and begin small genting event.
lolx~
Woke up around 10am but hide inside the room till 11am+ only go down to greet my dad and mum with "gong xi fa cai".
My big sis use my pc for skype.She even chatted with my friends by pretending me. =.="
Is it really that fun?lolx~
Around 1pm we left our host heading to Bkt.Bintang to meet my relatives.
Again this year only me and my dad go since my 2nd sis not feeling well.
After that i went to Time Square to purchase CJ7 movie ticket.Unexpectedly the queue is way too long and it is crowded both 1st and 3rd floor of the GSC ticketing counter.
I gave up and straight go to the temple with my dad for a prayer.
Once we left the temple,i went to fetch my small gang of friend to my house for a small genting event.Keke~
Unfortunately i lost around RM50.What a bad day and a bad ointment.
Nvm,i believe my luck will be coming soon.

Guess that's almost the end of my CNY cause i have finish "bai nian" with my relatives.lolx~
My CNY journey just begin and the stories continue~wakakakaka~

1st of Feb 2008

1st of feb marking on the calendar is the 2nd last day of a SH and SL in KL.
They finished their A-level (Gratz and good luck)
So then,i invite them go out as we don't know when is going to be the next time till we meet.
The night after i invited them out and the moment i fetched them,i completely clueless on where to go.
Since they said that they seldom go to Sunway Pyramid,so i drove there without a 2nd thought.
Once reach,of course we are off to the cinema to purchase movie ticket.
We wrote down our student id to get student price for that day.
And ehem,SH was so proud to tell us her id is 16 38 38.(lolx~~creation of me.the real id of her is 613333.Envy her got nice number)
We bought "Meet the Spartans" at 3:10pm.
After that,we went to Kim Gary for our lunch.Though i order the A-set meal worth RM13.90,but i guess that day i eat more than that.
Simply because there is so many donation from SL (instructed by my dear si fu SH.THANKS!!!)
After our lunch,we took some walk around and took pictures for our memories.
The CNY atmosphere there was quite nice and remarkable.
Then we pass by PDI concept shop and they both grab something for their CNY cloths.
After PDI,we browse through books at MPH and then we went to cinema.
OMG,the movie is really worth a laugh but too bad it's too short (around 1 H 05 M).
Then the 2 pretty young ladies went to J co to buy donuts.
After that we left pyramid.On the way home,ehem......i did it again.I miss the junction.
And we took around 1 H to 1 H 30 M to reach back Connaught. (Shame of myself as a KL ppl)
Then we went to 118 for a dinner.
Finally before dismiss,they spend a few minutes seeing me eat donut. =.="
After that,it's a farewell moment.

It's great to have friends like them.Bright up my day.
Wishing them all the best and happy go lucky always.

28.01.2008

Love relationship is really such a great power and awesome chemistry.
No one can ever give me a perfect 100% description about it.
What's the feelings of loving someone?
Heart pumping faster?Miss and think of the person?Simply feel happy and secure when with him/her?
All this might just be a pre-feeling of love.
When in relationship,it's sweet and warm.
Wishing and imagining something that's so perfect in a relationship.
But reality and imagination is always a big gap and total different.
Fairy tales don't come that easily.
Reading people's blog (kind of a sad one), reminds me of myself.
Strive hard to work for perfection but end up with a fallen relationship.
It hurts me deeply....just like a knife pierce through my heart.
But i understand something that is not meant to be together,no matter how hard i push it will result it worst.
Thus learning to let go and move forward is always a better choice.
We can keep the hope in heart(those who knows the "hope" i meant is the one feeling the same with me ^^),think of impossible things,and doing something silly.
But shall remember to buried all this silently into our heart's graveyard.

It's sweet when i recall the moment we had,it's bitter when i think too much.
Always wishing a new beginning......
A lonely journey begin with a new search.
A new search of what i need.
What could it be?
Love?

No one knows....not even myself.

9 Days and Counting

The supp schedule (1st draft have released)
My BB104 paper scheduled on the 24th January 2008@2:30pm.
Which is 9 days ahead from today.
Hikz~~~~~~a bit worried.
Trying my best to prepare for it.
Is it really impossible to score 70/100?
ish~~~~~try my best for my graduation.
Try my best for my incoming society world~
Strive hard for my MYVI~
God~~~please bless me with ur knowledge~
I feel like vomiting when i enter UCSI~
pls dun extend my stay at there~
PLS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i had enough for all this kind of tortured~

1st Lesson Of B.Stat

Today finally begin studying my b.stat and preparing for this supp paper.
1st thing reach college i straight go pay my supp fees and also collect my renewed student ID.
The record office help me renewed my id till May 2009 =.="
Which means if i graduate now,i can enjoy student privilage till May 2009. xD
After settle this 2 things i went to Block C to find miss.khor ming ming for supp tips.
She said supp will be harder than final.
But it is still possible for me to pass and it depends on how hardworking i am going to be.
Then i went to Block B to find Elaine in the library.
Quite nervous meeting her face to face for the 1st time.
Lolx~
She is quite friendly and her voice are so soft and gentle. xD
Beside,i can say she is quite a responsible person.
She promised to teach me,and she even take back the notes to study 1st before teaching me.
GREAT attitude. ^^
I am very happy that she is so so so willing to help me.
Hope i won't disappoint her and pass my supp paper.

EXCEL FORWARD!!!!!!

I Don't Care.I Don't Wanna Know!

When it come to how other ppl think and talk about me,i will be easily annoyed.
I don't like this feelings.
I am worried she thought that because of her appearance,i don't appeared for agnes birthday celebration.
No!It's not that.....
I don't go is simply because i don't want my mum nag me and it's kinda late when agnes invite me.
Feel sorry to Agnes's sincere invitation.

Anyway,from today onwards,i shall learn not to care about how other people think about me.
Most important is I know what i am doing~
Ignore their thought and live on. ^^

First Step For 2008

Today will be the 1st step for me in 2008.
Since i have flunk in my final exam for business statistic.
Now i need to sit and prepare for my supplementary paper.
If i pass it,i still can graduate without studying extra 1 more sem.
Hope i can score 70/100 during this supp exam.
Wish myself lucks and all the best.

GO GO GO!!!

Supp i won't scare you one!

Ice Skating

Finally,after a long awaits this moment has finally arrived.
The day i have waiting for so long since 21 yrs ago.
ICE SKATING~~~muahahahahaha xD

I so anxious waiting to enter the skating ring.
I am so so so worried that i will fall down.
I start predict how many drop will i need to face till i know how to walk. xD
The 1st step i entered,i totally like a cripple person.
Don't even know how to stand and i keep on moving backwards~
Lol~~of course i freak my friend Aiyak off since i am reversing~

So for the 1st hours(i guess) i just rely on the wall and push myself move.
It's such a pain and hard moment.As my elbow keep on knock the wall.
And i even accidently hit the wall with my right lady finger.Ouch~and it bleed as my nail crack a little.

Then i saw one of the regular skater appear.A man around 50+ yrs old.
Quite a pro or maybe a pro i should say.
I ask for his helps and coaching after hesitating a while.
Of course he taught me something at the end of the day.
All i need to do now is to keep on practise and build up my left leg strength.
Cause i can't use left leg to push. xD

One of my proud achievement for ice skating is i didn't fall down.muahahaha~~~~
And i even helped ppl 3 times. *PROUD*
1st time was a girl with a pink ear muff.She is so cute.She fall down after fighting for something with 2 little girls.She fall right in front of me and i give her a hand to lift her up. ^^
2nd was a little boy who actually bang on me(lucky i stand still).But he almost fall down and i grab his hand.WAKAKAKAKA~~~
3rd was a girl who also bang on me and can't manage to hold the wall and ehem~~~here i am again.Lend her a hand and help her get a grab of the wall.

Muahaha~~~it was a nice day and a nice beginning of 2008.Hope more better luck coming in my way.

And yeah,i love the purple glove that i had now.Look nice ^^ (RM8 for a poor quality)

P/S:I am planning for another icy skating next thursday after my class~Addicted to it~~xD