Love relationship is really such a great power and awesome chemistry.
No one can ever give me a perfect 100% description about it.
What's the feelings of loving someone?
Heart pumping faster?Miss and think of the person?Simply feel happy and secure when with him/her?
All this might just be a pre-feeling of love.
When in relationship,it's sweet and warm.
Wishing and imagining something that's so perfect in a relationship.
But reality and imagination is always a big gap and total different.
Fairy tales don't come that easily.
Reading people's blog (kind of a sad one), reminds me of myself.
Strive hard to work for perfection but end up with a fallen relationship.
It hurts me deeply....just like a knife pierce through my heart.
But i understand something that is not meant to be together,no matter how hard i push it will result it worst.
Thus learning to let go and move forward is always a better choice.
We can keep the hope in heart(those who knows the "hope" i meant is the one feeling the same with me ^^),think of impossible things,and doing something silly.
But shall remember to buried all this silently into our heart's graveyard.
It's sweet when i recall the moment we had,it's bitter when i think too much.
Always wishing a new beginning......
A lonely journey begin with a new search.
A new search of what i need.
What could it be?
Love?
No one knows....not even myself.
28 January 2008
15 January 2008
9 Days and Counting
The supp schedule (1st draft have released)
My BB104 paper scheduled on the 24th January 2008@2:30pm.
Which is 9 days ahead from today.
Hikz~~~~~~a bit worried.
Trying my best to prepare for it.
Is it really impossible to score 70/100?
ish~~~~~try my best for my graduation.
Try my best for my incoming society world~
Strive hard for my MYVI~
God~~~please bless me with ur knowledge~
I feel like vomiting when i enter UCSI~
pls dun extend my stay at there~
PLS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i had enough for all this kind of tortured~
My BB104 paper scheduled on the 24th January 2008@2:30pm.
Which is 9 days ahead from today.
Hikz~~~~~~a bit worried.
Trying my best to prepare for it.
Is it really impossible to score 70/100?
ish~~~~~try my best for my graduation.
Try my best for my incoming society world~
Strive hard for my MYVI~
God~~~please bless me with ur knowledge~
I feel like vomiting when i enter UCSI~
pls dun extend my stay at there~
PLS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i had enough for all this kind of tortured~
09 January 2008
1st Lesson Of B.Stat
Today finally begin studying my b.stat and preparing for this supp paper.
1st thing reach college i straight go pay my supp fees and also collect my renewed student ID.
The record office help me renewed my id till May 2009 =.="
Which means if i graduate now,i can enjoy student privilage till May 2009. xD
After settle this 2 things i went to Block C to find miss.khor ming ming for supp tips.
She said supp will be harder than final.
But it is still possible for me to pass and it depends on how hardworking i am going to be.
Then i went to Block B to find Elaine in the library.
Quite nervous meeting her face to face for the 1st time.
Lolx~
She is quite friendly and her voice are so soft and gentle. xD
Beside,i can say she is quite a responsible person.
She promised to teach me,and she even take back the notes to study 1st before teaching me.
GREAT attitude. ^^
I am very happy that she is so so so willing to help me.
Hope i won't disappoint her and pass my supp paper.
EXCEL FORWARD!!!!!!
1st thing reach college i straight go pay my supp fees and also collect my renewed student ID.
The record office help me renewed my id till May 2009 =.="
Which means if i graduate now,i can enjoy student privilage till May 2009. xD
After settle this 2 things i went to Block C to find miss.khor ming ming for supp tips.
She said supp will be harder than final.
But it is still possible for me to pass and it depends on how hardworking i am going to be.
Then i went to Block B to find Elaine in the library.
Quite nervous meeting her face to face for the 1st time.
Lolx~
She is quite friendly and her voice are so soft and gentle. xD
Beside,i can say she is quite a responsible person.
She promised to teach me,and she even take back the notes to study 1st before teaching me.
GREAT attitude. ^^
I am very happy that she is so so so willing to help me.
Hope i won't disappoint her and pass my supp paper.
EXCEL FORWARD!!!!!!
07 January 2008
I Don't Care.I Don't Wanna Know!
When it come to how other ppl think and talk about me,i will be easily annoyed.
I don't like this feelings.
I am worried she thought that because of her appearance,i don't appeared for agnes birthday celebration.
No!It's not that.....
I don't go is simply because i don't want my mum nag me and it's kinda late when agnes invite me.
Feel sorry to Agnes's sincere invitation.
Anyway,from today onwards,i shall learn not to care about how other people think about me.
Most important is I know what i am doing~
Ignore their thought and live on. ^^
I don't like this feelings.
I am worried she thought that because of her appearance,i don't appeared for agnes birthday celebration.
No!It's not that.....
I don't go is simply because i don't want my mum nag me and it's kinda late when agnes invite me.
Feel sorry to Agnes's sincere invitation.
Anyway,from today onwards,i shall learn not to care about how other people think about me.
Most important is I know what i am doing~
Ignore their thought and live on. ^^
First Step For 2008
Today will be the 1st step for me in 2008.
Since i have flunk in my final exam for business statistic.
Now i need to sit and prepare for my supplementary paper.
If i pass it,i still can graduate without studying extra 1 more sem.
Hope i can score 70/100 during this supp exam.
Wish myself lucks and all the best.
GO GO GO!!!
Supp i won't scare you one!
Since i have flunk in my final exam for business statistic.
Now i need to sit and prepare for my supplementary paper.
If i pass it,i still can graduate without studying extra 1 more sem.
Hope i can score 70/100 during this supp exam.
Wish myself lucks and all the best.
GO GO GO!!!
Supp i won't scare you one!
03 January 2008
Ice Skating
Finally,after a long awaits this moment has finally arrived.
The day i have waiting for so long since 21 yrs ago.
ICE SKATING~~~muahahahahaha xD
I so anxious waiting to enter the skating ring.
I am so so so worried that i will fall down.
I start predict how many drop will i need to face till i know how to walk. xD
The 1st step i entered,i totally like a cripple person.
Don't even know how to stand and i keep on moving backwards~
Lol~~of course i freak my friend Aiyak off since i am reversing~
So for the 1st hours(i guess) i just rely on the wall and push myself move.
It's such a pain and hard moment.As my elbow keep on knock the wall.
And i even accidently hit the wall with my right lady finger.Ouch~and it bleed as my nail crack a little.
Then i saw one of the regular skater appear.A man around 50+ yrs old.
Quite a pro or maybe a pro i should say.
I ask for his helps and coaching after hesitating a while.
Of course he taught me something at the end of the day.
All i need to do now is to keep on practise and build up my left leg strength.
Cause i can't use left leg to push. xD
One of my proud achievement for ice skating is i didn't fall down.muahahaha~~~~
And i even helped ppl 3 times. *PROUD*
1st time was a girl with a pink ear muff.She is so cute.She fall down after fighting for something with 2 little girls.She fall right in front of me and i give her a hand to lift her up. ^^
2nd was a little boy who actually bang on me(lucky i stand still).But he almost fall down and i grab his hand.WAKAKAKAKA~~~
3rd was a girl who also bang on me and can't manage to hold the wall and ehem~~~here i am again.Lend her a hand and help her get a grab of the wall.
Muahaha~~~it was a nice day and a nice beginning of 2008.Hope more better luck coming in my way.
And yeah,i love the purple glove that i had now.Look nice ^^ (RM8 for a poor quality)
P/S:I am planning for another icy skating next thursday after my class~Addicted to it~~xD
The day i have waiting for so long since 21 yrs ago.
ICE SKATING~~~muahahahahaha xD
I so anxious waiting to enter the skating ring.
I am so so so worried that i will fall down.
I start predict how many drop will i need to face till i know how to walk. xD
The 1st step i entered,i totally like a cripple person.
Don't even know how to stand and i keep on moving backwards~
Lol~~of course i freak my friend Aiyak off since i am reversing~
So for the 1st hours(i guess) i just rely on the wall and push myself move.
It's such a pain and hard moment.As my elbow keep on knock the wall.
And i even accidently hit the wall with my right lady finger.Ouch~and it bleed as my nail crack a little.
Then i saw one of the regular skater appear.A man around 50+ yrs old.
Quite a pro or maybe a pro i should say.
I ask for his helps and coaching after hesitating a while.
Of course he taught me something at the end of the day.
All i need to do now is to keep on practise and build up my left leg strength.
Cause i can't use left leg to push. xD
One of my proud achievement for ice skating is i didn't fall down.muahahaha~~~~
And i even helped ppl 3 times. *PROUD*
1st time was a girl with a pink ear muff.She is so cute.She fall down after fighting for something with 2 little girls.She fall right in front of me and i give her a hand to lift her up. ^^
2nd was a little boy who actually bang on me(lucky i stand still).But he almost fall down and i grab his hand.WAKAKAKAKA~~~
3rd was a girl who also bang on me and can't manage to hold the wall and ehem~~~here i am again.Lend her a hand and help her get a grab of the wall.
Muahaha~~~it was a nice day and a nice beginning of 2008.Hope more better luck coming in my way.
And yeah,i love the purple glove that i had now.Look nice ^^ (RM8 for a poor quality)
P/S:I am planning for another icy skating next thursday after my class~Addicted to it~~xD
New Near New Resolution
Well,a new year a new beginning a new journey a new mission of course~
2008 will be a total different world for me.
Without love at the beginning of the year.
Study pressure is on.
And er......my resolution will be something like below:
1)LEARN how to save money~
2)STOP saying vulgar words~
3)MUST PASS my academic~
4)FIND a good job~
5)FIND my true love?
Haha.....who knows?Hope can complete some of it will be something i feel proud of.
Especially my academic and financial.
Justin GO GO GO!!!!
2008 will be a total different world for me.
Without love at the beginning of the year.
Study pressure is on.
And er......my resolution will be something like below:
1)LEARN how to save money~
2)STOP saying vulgar words~
3)MUST PASS my academic~
4)FIND a good job~
5)FIND my true love?
Haha.....who knows?Hope can complete some of it will be something i feel proud of.
Especially my academic and financial.
Justin GO GO GO!!!!
02 January 2008
Review of 2007
All the while i thought i really a happy go lucky guy.
I've got a lovely and nice gf,i got a good family that is so supportive,my academic is ok since i can pass and financially i don't have big problem with it.
Everything starting to change slowly and end up i wasn't having a good year after all.
I start questioned myself,what have i did for the year 2007?
Beside busy taking care of my ex-gf and managing that relationship,i really don't know what other achievement and improvement i have.
Conclusion is i never do anything meaningful.
In the end of the year,my relationship finally fallen and collapse.
It was one of my hardest time i had throughout 21 years in my life.
Guess i really love her too much and need her too much.
But,something can't be forced.So i just can let it flow naturally and see what in future "we" will be.
During my break up,i cried.
Though boys shouldn't cry,but i really can't hold it.
Er.........maybe aquarius should live this way?
But well,thanks to some of my friends who keep on find me go out,they make me let go easier.
Thus i know,life should be filled with friendship more than relationship in a certain level.
Well,that's not the end of my bad luck run.
I flunk in my business stat again.
This round i need to sit for supp paper.
I start wondering am i really that dumb and stupid or is it that miss dislike me?
I really worried bout my result.
I wanted to pass it.I felt so confidence for my last paper.
How come i flunk?
It is a big SURPRISE to me.
Haihz,guess i can say is luck have their cycle.
We might be lucky for a long duration,but bad luck might be coming any time as well.
Be ready and face it.
Take everything that is happening in our life as a big challenge and cherish it to be our experience.
This is one of the best way to grow stronger and be a better person.
Life is like challenging a big wave.
Cool isn't it?
I've got a lovely and nice gf,i got a good family that is so supportive,my academic is ok since i can pass and financially i don't have big problem with it.
Everything starting to change slowly and end up i wasn't having a good year after all.
I start questioned myself,what have i did for the year 2007?
Beside busy taking care of my ex-gf and managing that relationship,i really don't know what other achievement and improvement i have.
Conclusion is i never do anything meaningful.
In the end of the year,my relationship finally fallen and collapse.
It was one of my hardest time i had throughout 21 years in my life.
Guess i really love her too much and need her too much.
But,something can't be forced.So i just can let it flow naturally and see what in future "we" will be.
During my break up,i cried.
Though boys shouldn't cry,but i really can't hold it.
Er.........maybe aquarius should live this way?
But well,thanks to some of my friends who keep on find me go out,they make me let go easier.
Thus i know,life should be filled with friendship more than relationship in a certain level.
Well,that's not the end of my bad luck run.
I flunk in my business stat again.
This round i need to sit for supp paper.
I start wondering am i really that dumb and stupid or is it that miss dislike me?
I really worried bout my result.
I wanted to pass it.I felt so confidence for my last paper.
How come i flunk?
It is a big SURPRISE to me.
Haihz,guess i can say is luck have their cycle.
We might be lucky for a long duration,but bad luck might be coming any time as well.
Be ready and face it.
Take everything that is happening in our life as a big challenge and cherish it to be our experience.
This is one of the best way to grow stronger and be a better person.
Life is like challenging a big wave.
Cool isn't it?
X'mas and New Year Eve 2007
X'mas eve i was at home with my family.
My second sister ordered a roasted turkey don't know from which restaurant.
It was my first time eating a turkey.
So i can said this is a brand new experience to me.
Turkey really a huge one.It's like 2-3 times of a normal chicken that i eat so often.
Anyway,the taste of the turkey is almost the same as chicken.
Only thing i guess different is that the skin and meat are more rough.
I can't even pull the drumstick or "thigh" with my strength.
Lol~~
Kind of a nice and peaceful x'mas eve i got this year.
Then 31st December 2007,the last day of 2007.
Nothing much different from x'mas since i stay at home at night.
Waiting my boss Aiyak back home and Dota together.
Earlier morning,we both went to time square shop for our Chinese New Year cloths.
We both went to Look Out Point to have our dinner.
Er..........i still love the sizzling chicken chop there.
It was a great meal to have when we are up there at look out point.
And we did saw a few pretty girls.
1 of them is from UCSI.
Aiyak even approach the girl by asking "are you from sedaya?u look familiar."
Lol,and that girl squat down and have a few words with us.
That few words really mean few words as in "Yes....you two also?Ok,thanks....bb"
Er,guess she is too busy working that night.
That's basically what happen for my x'mas and new year eve.
Wish all of my friends and family members a great and happy new year.
All the best to you all.
Farewell 2007,Harlo 2008.
My second sister ordered a roasted turkey don't know from which restaurant.
It was my first time eating a turkey.
So i can said this is a brand new experience to me.
Turkey really a huge one.It's like 2-3 times of a normal chicken that i eat so often.
Anyway,the taste of the turkey is almost the same as chicken.
Only thing i guess different is that the skin and meat are more rough.
I can't even pull the drumstick or "thigh" with my strength.
Lol~~
Kind of a nice and peaceful x'mas eve i got this year.
Then 31st December 2007,the last day of 2007.
Nothing much different from x'mas since i stay at home at night.
Waiting my boss Aiyak back home and Dota together.
Earlier morning,we both went to time square shop for our Chinese New Year cloths.
We both went to Look Out Point to have our dinner.
Er..........i still love the sizzling chicken chop there.
It was a great meal to have when we are up there at look out point.
And we did saw a few pretty girls.
1 of them is from UCSI.
Aiyak even approach the girl by asking "are you from sedaya?u look familiar."
Lol,and that girl squat down and have a few words with us.
That few words really mean few words as in "Yes....you two also?Ok,thanks....bb"
Er,guess she is too busy working that night.
That's basically what happen for my x'mas and new year eve.
Wish all of my friends and family members a great and happy new year.
All the best to you all.
Farewell 2007,Harlo 2008.
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